Patience & Transformation

Even though I’ve heard about patience and the Buddha quote “Change your Mind and you change the World”, they never really sunk in when applying them to my own life in the present and not metaphorically.
Today I tried out transcendental meditation technique of repeating a made up word in my head over and over. By doing this your mind can’t relate anything to the word and therefore gains no momentum of thought from it; eventually tiring into nothingness.
Later on I went to the park straight after waking up from a nap. As I was walking I felt sensations in my body and ended up walking a different way than I usually do. Along the way I was a bit apprehensive about where I’d end up but decided to try and trust my inner guidance. I ended up at the park I usually go to, but took a completely unfamiliar route. I had a moment of realisation that it could be insight into my current thought process also. I must be quite apprehensive about where I’m going to end up and maybe sometimes taking fear based decisions on direction instead of trusting myself to lead me to the place of my hearts manifestations.
When I sat in the park I noticed how the voice of my old thought pattern was restricting me now from making spontaneous decisions. The thought or feeling of wanting to do something would come, closely followed by a fear based reaction steering me away into hiding.
I guess this is the current process I’m finding my way out of through being present, trusting my inner guidance to lead me and coming back to the place we all are born from. It’s funny that the old thought process takes you away from the natural being of love that you are and feel fear following it’s direction, when it’s leading you back to the true and ingenious you.

In my card reading for today I drew Patience and Death from the Soul Journey lesson cards, and from the Oracle deck, Scorpio, Saturnus, Aries and Mars. I feel that they informed the inner knowing that beginnings are brought in by endings, and that patience is the knowing that everything is always working out for your highest good and that this transformation can’t be rushed. The oracle cards translated to surrender to transformation and rebirth, impatience can lead to ruthlessness.

Eyes of illusion

Fear is a test of our resolve to live in the energy of love.
Grief is an opportunity to appreciate something by losing it.
Trust is trusting your inner voice to guide you.

In the eyes of the Ego; our old thought pattern, fear is a way of controlling us to keep us from growing, and grief is the illusion of the permanence of loss.

In the eyes of love, fear is the reality of the lessons we have learnt that return us back to remembering our true nature. Love reconnects us to the truth that loves bonds are eternal and anything we temporarily lost, will return to us In another form.

Trust is the inner knowing that we are only returning to our true self, and the only pain of loss is the ego under fire and losing its illusory control over our minds. Fear is the ego resisting change and our growth.
I know and trust we’re all coming home to ourselves.

And I just realised were approaching Spring, so here’s a relevant quote of wisdom.

For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. the shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. to someone who doesn’t understand growth, it would look like complete destruction

// Cynthia Occelli


It’s an unfathomable thing.
I have a friend, that I’d just kind of stumbled across through being friends with another. I’d never really thought about the bonds of friendship until today.
I’ve kind of felt for a while, that I was living in my house with people nothing like me. Maybe my lesson was to be unapologetically myself to draw in people that serve my higher growth. One thing I had noticed was the lessons that people around me seemed to be learning, and I’d been able to recognise as I’d experienced similar.
I’ve learnt to honour myself as a soul today, a wealth of experience, and that the light of love I reside in, might just light a glow of presence that might lead others by example.
I’ve opened my eyes to the divine plans to assist our soul growth and how much we really do interconnect. I’ve learnt from my judgement of others learning and the light they shed on my purpose through their own lessons. I live in pride of myself in this exact moment, and the elements of myself I see in others.
Sometimes we do by doing nothing at all, intentionally, but by living through experiences and trust that everything is constantly unfolding for us, all. By going placidly amidst the noise and haste, and see what peace there might be in silence.

Give me a sign…

I’ve had an ah-ha moment
I’ve become fixated on the words on these soul lesson cards, which, don’t get me wrong, have definitely transformed my word associations, but in the process of seeking answers, I’ve forgotten the peace in presence. I’m waiting for an answer I’m simply not listening out for because I’m constantly in the future.
Time to slow down and relax into the moment, in the peace my soul can be heard.

For those who have an intense urge for spirit and wisdom, it sits near them, waiting

A lesson in Love

I got a pretty defining moment in my cards today, I want to share it in case it teaches or helps anyone else.
I got friendship, with love and fear either side. Humour reigns wise above friendship.
I get the feeling, after a little ponder, that the current thought for myself is probably confusion why a girl I live with especially seems to imitate things I do or have.

When choosing love, we choose unconditional energy that remains and teaches that it will always reign supreme over the little annoyances people might cause. We aim for compassion and love toward that person that our presence might teach them and they will find their own path and honour their light. For the light in the situation, I feel gracious that someone sees something in me worth emulating, and that I’m learning from them too.

I am learning to see the lighter side of this feeling of being copied, and not to see it negatively. Envy does not necessarily mean that someone is superior to anyone and should be copied, it is, I feel, a harmony of some form in vibrations. I am learning to see the lessons from friendships wether I regard them highly or not.

Unconditional means free of limitation and conditioning.
I feel I am learning a lot about what love is, beyond being ‘in love’ terms and more of its universal energy that we live in.

Soul Lessons

I’ve got really into my soul cards, I use them pretty much every other day or so.
I just made my way out of a difficult situation in which I was urged to change my perception in making a decision. I’ve definitely noticed my inner feelings getting stronger as I’ve followed them, despite it only being a few days but with pretty drastic decisions.
I almost left university, but also nearly left aspects that I’ve desired that are and have been right in front of me, all in the frantic chasing of my own tail. I’m so caught up in the struggle and survive ‘lifestyle’ that I didn’t even notice what I had before I went onto catching the next goal tail. I was slowed right down to the point I felt like I was in a straight jacket of no control over the situation, and inner turmoil at an all time high.
I am a recovering people pleaser, but today in such a simple act of someone wanting to listen to another song, I found myself automatically as soon as the response was necessary, blurting out ‘no!’, before my mind even notified me.
I’ve been listening to a few Abraham Hicks seminars, as the things I need to hear are always brought to the YouTube recommendation lists, even if I don’t understand the message yet. Today I heard the point of being present, which I’ve already heard numerous times, but for me, until it’s actually a present issue I can’t really fully practice cultivating its is-ness. Ironic really seeing as the presence is the whole issue.

On the bright side, I am starting to slow down and actually listen to myself instead of rathering throw myself straight off the metaphoric mental cliff, but the green light comes on.

Radical Change

I’m taking a leap of faith.

Leaving university, the house, and the life I’ve built up that no longer serves me and my soul journey. I’m going to use the money I saved to take a lone trip to Sri Lanka for four weeks. I don’t have a clue what will happen there or when I’m back, but I know it’s the right thing for me.

It makes my heart sing.

I have a set of ‘Souls Journey Lesson Cards’ by James Van Praagh. Today the thought of such a big leap was playing on my mind a bit, slightly questioning if it’s the right thing to do. The cards I drew, we’ll, that fell out for current energies revealed freedom, grief and growth – pretty apt, and encouraging.
I feel like this is a step into my authentic self. It will guide me to be mindful of the illusion of loss, and a step closer to love.

Light vs. Dark


I’ve just come back from a holiday, I saw cats everywhere, even up a mountain.
I’m so confused over what to do.
I just drew a whole handful of angel oracle planetary cards telling me things I’ve been told before, and one astrological card, my sun sign.
I didn’t understand it. I realised the guidance of not using my intelligence to wound was to not wound myself. My light is the innovative light of truth.
I know I’m coming to an extremely transformational part of my path, to transcend my fear; my ego, survival.
I drew three tarot cards, the devil, the king of pentacles and the ten of swords, all upright. I perceived a message of hurting myself, and in coherence with the oracle, my talents are working against me, through my ego. I have been aware the last few weeks I am living in fear.
I have researched much about the spiritual path but never really acknowledged the very challenge of all transformation, that is staring me in the face right now. I have been guided that all is surrounding me with love and light. I fear the perception and illusion that I can’t survive without my ego, but it want more than anything else to be free and stand in my power of love, truth and light. I know my scorpio rising will guide me with the angels and light workers. I trust my ability to pass through the gate back to myself and I forgive myself tenfold. I call upon all ascended masters, light beings, angels and higher self to assist and guide me through this darkness.