Forgiveness 

My cards combined today and yesterday, revealed that through gratitude and happiness, we reach the space of forgiveness. I now am starting to see the greater wisdom in everything I had to go through. I forgive the child within me that did the best she possibly could with the knowledge she had, I am grateful and in awe of her courage through the process of learning, to continue to the moment of now, where I, she, sees.

I know now despite the perceived good and bad definitions we place on our experiences, it is all for a greater vision, our greater potential. We must come through this path to come to a place of knowing that our suffering is no longer necessary, but have the courage to meet it with gratitude. 

Through gratitude we recognise that spirit was always within and around us, offering support, but we must travel this path to come to a place of higher consciousness. The past is not something to be held onto as our story, and as positive or negative. We must unclench our hands from the desperate grasp. It is still In its isness. We our the awareness that has come through to the other side. 

Expanding Consciousness

Today I’ve been feeling really off, like I was getting tonsillitis. I didn’t quite feel like going to the doctor was necessary, so I rested up instead believing it would pass soon.

A few minutes ago, after intervals of uncertainty and impatient angel card attempts, I had a revelation. I don’t know why but I was laying in bed contemplating what it would be like to imagine the fuzzy energy inside my body leaving. I then questioned wether astral projection was the energy leaving the body or the soul in a kind of bodily form leaving the limited body and mind. I came to the realisation that the energy leaving the body was actually death, ultimately. This was a liberation! Death as an ending is as said, an illusion of the egoic mind. The body dies is it is the housing for experiencing this physical dimension in human form, and is not eternal. However the illusory feeling of grief accompanying Death presented as loss by the ego, really is just the acceptance that things die- wether it be an actual death of a person for example or the death of a part of a person to rebirth and transform. The thing is, the forms of love bonds with these things we experience never die, and things transform and regenerate to make room for the new.

The reality of human form is, we are all really made up of a tiny part of a huge ball of the buzzing energy you feel throughout your body when you pause. The mind comes as a package with the body, and as a part of our conditioning we have learnt to identify with that inside voice and thoughts as ‘me’. The ego separates these balls of the same energy to judge things as good or bad, including people, experience. It gives us the false power of feeling superior or inferior to other people, based on a conceptual and physical observation. The ego keeps us trapped in a prison of beliefs that limit our mind from expanding and recognising deep truths of who we really are. This truth revealed to me in the space of contemplation is that nothing we ever experience is good or bad, wrong or right; we are simply here to experience through the physical body. The past and future are not parts of this experience until we are in them and nothing we do to try to predict or fix them is going to change us from who we truly are. We are perfection is physical form and our life purpose is to learn, experience and grow! 

We are all slowly coming home to the truth that we are here to live fully, and expand our minds and awareness through growth and experience; to change. We must accept the impermanence of life and our ever changing world that does not stand still. The stillness lies in our presence as an existing life form on the planet. We are life.

Patience & Transformation

Even though I’ve heard about patience and the Buddha quote “Change your Mind and you change the World”, they never really sunk in when applying them to my own life in the present and not metaphorically.
Today I tried out transcendental meditation technique of repeating a made up word in my head over and over. By doing this your mind can’t relate anything to the word and therefore gains no momentum of thought from it; eventually tiring into nothingness.
Later on I went to the park straight after waking up from a nap. As I was walking I felt sensations in my body and ended up walking a different way than I usually do. Along the way I was a bit apprehensive about where I’d end up but decided to try and trust my inner guidance. I ended up at the park I usually go to, but took a completely unfamiliar route. I had a moment of realisation that it could be insight into my current thought process also. I must be quite apprehensive about where I’m going to end up and maybe sometimes taking fear based decisions on direction instead of trusting myself to lead me to the place of my hearts manifestations.
When I sat in the park I noticed how the voice of my old thought pattern was restricting me now from making spontaneous decisions. The thought or feeling of wanting to do something would come, closely followed by a fear based reaction steering me away into hiding.
I guess this is the current process I’m finding my way out of through being present, trusting my inner guidance to lead me and coming back to the place we all are born from. It’s funny that the old thought process takes you away from the natural being of love that you are and feel fear following it’s direction, when it’s leading you back to the true and ingenious you.

In my card reading for today I drew Patience and Death from the Soul Journey lesson cards, and from the Oracle deck, Scorpio, Saturnus, Aries and Mars. I feel that they informed the inner knowing that beginnings are brought in by endings, and that patience is the knowing that everything is always working out for your highest good and that this transformation can’t be rushed. The oracle cards translated to surrender to transformation and rebirth, impatience can lead to ruthlessness.

Eyes of illusion

Fear is a test of our resolve to live in the energy of love.
Grief is an opportunity to appreciate something by losing it.
Trust is trusting your inner voice to guide you.

In the eyes of the Ego; our old thought pattern, fear is a way of controlling us to keep us from growing, and grief is the illusion of the permanence of loss.

In the eyes of love, fear is the reality of the lessons we have learnt that return us back to remembering our true nature. Love reconnects us to the truth that loves bonds are eternal and anything we temporarily lost, will return to us In another form.

Trust is the inner knowing that we are only returning to our true self, and the only pain of loss is the ego under fire and losing its illusory control over our minds. Fear is the ego resisting change and our growth.
I know and trust we’re all coming home to ourselves.

And I just realised were approaching Spring, so here’s a relevant quote of wisdom.

For a seed to achieve its greatest expression, it must come completely undone. the shell cracks, its insides come out and everything changes. to someone who doesn’t understand growth, it would look like complete destruction

// Cynthia Occelli

Friendship

It’s an unfathomable thing.
I have a friend, that I’d just kind of stumbled across through being friends with another. I’d never really thought about the bonds of friendship until today.
I’ve kind of felt for a while, that I was living in my house with people nothing like me. Maybe my lesson was to be unapologetically myself to draw in people that serve my higher growth. One thing I had noticed was the lessons that people around me seemed to be learning, and I’d been able to recognise as I’d experienced similar.
I’ve learnt to honour myself as a soul today, a wealth of experience, and that the light of love I reside in, might just light a glow of presence that might lead others by example.
I’ve opened my eyes to the divine plans to assist our soul growth and how much we really do interconnect. I’ve learnt from my judgement of others learning and the light they shed on my purpose through their own lessons. I live in pride of myself in this exact moment, and the elements of myself I see in others.
Sometimes we do by doing nothing at all, intentionally, but by living through experiences and trust that everything is constantly unfolding for us, all. By going placidly amidst the noise and haste, and see what peace there might be in silence.

Give me a sign…

I’ve had an ah-ha moment
I’ve become fixated on the words on these soul lesson cards, which, don’t get me wrong, have definitely transformed my word associations, but in the process of seeking answers, I’ve forgotten the peace in presence. I’m waiting for an answer I’m simply not listening out for because I’m constantly in the future.
Time to slow down and relax into the moment, in the peace my soul can be heard.

For those who have an intense urge for spirit and wisdom, it sits near them, waiting

A lesson in Love

I got a pretty defining moment in my cards today, I want to share it in case it teaches or helps anyone else.
I got friendship, with love and fear either side. Humour reigns wise above friendship.
I get the feeling, after a little ponder, that the current thought for myself is probably confusion why a girl I live with especially seems to imitate things I do or have.

When choosing love, we choose unconditional energy that remains and teaches that it will always reign supreme over the little annoyances people might cause. We aim for compassion and love toward that person that our presence might teach them and they will find their own path and honour their light. For the light in the situation, I feel gracious that someone sees something in me worth emulating, and that I’m learning from them too.

I am learning to see the lighter side of this feeling of being copied, and not to see it negatively. Envy does not necessarily mean that someone is superior to anyone and should be copied, it is, I feel, a harmony of some form in vibrations. I am learning to see the lessons from friendships wether I regard them highly or not.

Unconditional means free of limitation and conditioning.
I feel I am learning a lot about what love is, beyond being ‘in love’ terms and more of its universal energy that we live in.

Soul Lessons

I’ve got really into my soul cards, I use them pretty much every other day or so.
I just made my way out of a difficult situation in which I was urged to change my perception in making a decision. I’ve definitely noticed my inner feelings getting stronger as I’ve followed them, despite it only being a few days but with pretty drastic decisions.
I almost left university, but also nearly left aspects that I’ve desired that are and have been right in front of me, all in the frantic chasing of my own tail. I’m so caught up in the struggle and survive ‘lifestyle’ that I didn’t even notice what I had before I went onto catching the next goal tail. I was slowed right down to the point I felt like I was in a straight jacket of no control over the situation, and inner turmoil at an all time high.
I am a recovering people pleaser, but today in such a simple act of someone wanting to listen to another song, I found myself automatically as soon as the response was necessary, blurting out ‘no!’, before my mind even notified me.
I’ve been listening to a few Abraham Hicks seminars, as the things I need to hear are always brought to the YouTube recommendation lists, even if I don’t understand the message yet. Today I heard the point of being present, which I’ve already heard numerous times, but for me, until it’s actually a present issue I can’t really fully practice cultivating its is-ness. Ironic really seeing as the presence is the whole issue.

On the bright side, I am starting to slow down and actually listen to myself instead of rathering throw myself straight off the metaphoric mental cliff, but the green light comes on.